GooD LuCK!!!

Well i know u took ur final exam today... i hope you passed it... i can't ask u how u did cuz you told me that today you wouldn't be able to talk to me... which is fine... i got an e-mail from you today saying you take ur test and then you are one step closer to me... i'm sooo excited... only 17 more days left... that is sooo great!!! you are almost home... time couldn't speed up any faster... i wish you were coming home tomorrow!!! that would be the best!!! but it's okay cuz i know that you and i have come a long way from seeing each other, that when you and i finally see each other it will be sooo great!!! you really brightened up my day yesterday with ur text messages... by telling me how much you love me and that u can't wait until you are home... you really don't know how much that meant to me... i went from having an "eh" day to a hella great day!!! you really know how to make my life sooo much better!!! i love you sooo much for that... i think i needed all that though... like a really cute text message from you... i felt like something was lacking... and after that, i felt a million times complete!!! thank you sooo much for that baby!!! you mean sooo much to me!!! you really do... and i miss you sooo much!!! and i can't wait until i'm in ur arms!!! well i hope u did do very good on ur final exam... i'm sure you did... i'm not even worried about it... i just hope to talk to u tomorrow... i love you baby boy... and i'll write you some more later...

19 MoRe DayS... Sooo CLoSe!!!

Wow baby... i can't wait... you are almost home... hehehe... it's gona be sooo great... well i'm texting you... and you said that u were going to send some clothes home today... i'll be sure to look out for the package... i'm pretty sure i won't have to sign for it... just make sure to get an estimated day of delivery and i will b home at by 3:15 the latest so i'll be able to check it when i get home... that and i could tell my g*ma to be on the look out for a package so she could just bring it in when she picks up martini... but i'm sure the package won't come til after i'm outta school... so u'll be fine... and i'll iron everything that needs to be ironed... lol... baby... ur crazy... u just asked me if i wana skype w/ u... and u haven't told me when... gosh ur silly... hehehe... wut am i going to do with you... well last night was pretty fun... the Geisha House was good... but idk if i'd drive all the way down there just for some food... it would have to be a thing like where i'm in the area all day or something... or if we like went to see a play and then went to a nice dinner... then that would be a time to go... i had sushi... but they have other things there... maybe we can go some time... and the prices aren't too bad... but then again i know u don't like sushi so it would all be up to you and if you woud want to go... cuz if we don't it's not a big deal... BABY!!! we need to go to the arboretum... i've been really wanting to go... and i think wen u come home, it will be perfect weather... maybe we can go the weekend you come home... oh and guess wut... a girl from my class told me that she can dye my hair the blonde that i want... cuz remember how i told you that my hair at the bottom didn't take too well... well she said that she can get it that color and make my hair more healthy... and i'm sooo excited... i start my new module monday... one module down four more to go!!! isn't that awesome!!! i'm a fifth done!!! hehehe... yay!!! i should have my license in May!!! woo!!! i'm excited!!! baby i really can't get over it... you are seriously almost home... i'm just like wow... i can't believe it's actually happening... i'm soooo on cloud 9... well in a few days i will tell you about this site that i have been making for you... i told you... i can surprise you... hehehe... you're so cute... one day you'll get how to fully surprise me... hehehe... though... i have to admit you did get me... at least once or twice... hehehe... i love you baby... you really are the best!!! i love you!!!

SuRPRiiSe... you'Ve GoT MaiiL!!!

so i guess you sent me something via fedex... and i haven't received it... but i'll keep on the look out for it... sorry you couldn't surpise me with this one... but hey... u did surprise me with the clothes!!! but either way... thank you baby for my "surprise" and it still is a surprise cuz i have no clue wut it could possibly be... you literally have me here thinking... like more clothes??? um... a blanket??? um... a doggie tag w/ our names on it??? i'm stumped... really clueless on this one... hehehe... but either way... i know i will love it!!! shoot you were able to pick me out clothes... and you know how picky i can be when it comes to clothing!!! i was like "damn baby got S-T-Y-L-E!!!" hehehe... anyways... i love how you write me over e-mail now... u have to agree... it's sooo much quicker than regular mail (((snail mail)))... hehehe... i love it!!! I LOVE YOU!!! like sooo much, times a million, a whole lotta, more than you could ever imagine!!! hehehe... sorry, but thinking of you makes me get on cloud 9... i get all happy and hyper!!! it's like the best feeling in the world... specially the thought of you coming home... i did get a lil bit jealous cuz rachel gets to see bobby... but i am happy for her... cuz bobby did leave her before u left me... so i guess all in all, it's fair... i'm just hella excited to see you, to feel you, to touch you, to be in ur arms!!! oh how much i have longed for just a simple hug from you, a kiss from you... i really do miss you... but i know we are almost with each other again!!! 23 more days... wow... i could remember how sad i felt when we were 23 days into bct... gosh it seemed like it would never end and that i would never see you again... and now that it's finally here, i think to myself "omg!!! am i really going to be seeing him this soon??? or am i dreaming??? and will i wake up from this dream to find out that it's only been a day since he's been gone???"... it's kinda scarey when you look at it like that, to wake up and realize that it's only been one day, one week, or one month since you've been gone... but i do know that this is reality!!! and i couldn't be happier to know that in 23 more days you and i will see each other... and once again fall in love with each other all over again... like you and i always do from time to time... and i love to write my thoughts, my feelings that i have on this blogging site... it's almost like my diary for you... and you only to read... hehehe... it helps time pass by and it helps me try to explain to you how much i feel for you and all the different ways i feel about you... it's almost like giving my heart a pen and letting it write freely... its such a wonderful feeling... and sorry if i do babble on... but i can't help it... i'm talking about you... you, my favorite subject in the world... i could seriously talk about you all day... if i'm not telling nicki, i'm writting it on here... i love you baby!!! it's as simple as that... or better yet... I CHEESE SANDWICH YOU!!! sooo much!!! with all my heart!!! god only knows how much i love you... and i hope that one day you could really look in my eyes straight to my heart and say "damn this girl really loves me" cuz i really do... one day, if you don't see it now, you will see it... you will feel it... i promise i will always make you fall in love with me... over and over again!!!

25 MoRe DayS!!!

hey baby!!! its another day down... soon you'll be home... omg!!! it's sooo exciting!!! imagine... soon we'll be waking up next to each other every morning... and you and i will have the whole house to ourselves for 3 days!!! that's gona be the best... we can do wut ever we want!!! hehehe... i think you know what were gona do... and wutever else we decide to do will be fun... maybe i'll try and miss a day... hehehe... baby i love you sooo much... and i really can't wait til ur home... i know the time will be soon but yet it still seems sooo far away... just know that i love you and you are always in my heart and on my mind... te amo mucho mi amor...

aNoTHeR B*Day???

yay!!! baby!!! you surprised me yesterday!!! i was like "awww!!! he got me flowers"... i was all jumping up and down w/ a huge smile on my face... hehehe... your the best baby!!! i loved the flowers!!! they are sooo beautiful!!! i wish they could last forever... well yesterday was good... rachel ended up coming over... she gave me my present... she got me the gossip girl game... it's pretty cool... she got me a small red teddy bear... and said "it's to go w/ ur new red room" hahaha... she's tripping... hahaha... and NO IT'S NOT GONA BE RED!!! lol... then she got me pens w/ crowns on them... and she got me some honey that was straight from a bee hive... i was like how cool cuz i love honey... specially in the winter cuz i alway drink hott tea!!! yay!!! but i put up a sign for my mom "don't use" cuz last time, rachel gave me german vodka and i put it in the fridge to keep it cold for a day when i'd really want it... and well... my mom ended up drinking it w/ out asking me... and i was sooo upset... i was licking the bottle to get a taste... cuz it was one of those small bottles only big enough for a shot... i was like "awww... bull shit!!!" hahaha... so this time i made sure to put a note on it... my mom laughed when she saw it... it was really nice to hang out w/ rachel... i did miss her... any ways... baby!!! you are the best!!! you completely surprised me w/ my shirts and skirt from tillys... i was like "omg!!!" i was all yellin... hahaha... i was really excited!!! hehehe!!! te amo baby!!! i swear... you are hundreds of miles away and you still know how to make my day... you do such thoughtful things... and that's one of the many reasons why i love you... you always know how to make me feel like i'm worth a lot!!! i love you sooo much baby.. like you don't even know... and i'm sooo happy that i was finally able to hang two of ur shirts in our closet!!! omg!!! it's really starting to feel like reality, that we are going to be living together!!! yay!!! i'm excited!!! this feels sooo great!!! you don't even know how much i'm admiring the fact that two of your shirts are on your side of the closet!!! i love you baby!!! i will talk to you later... and thank you for singing me happy b*day... and no i didn't record it... i was kidding... but i had to get you worried... lol...

HaPPy B*Day 2 Me!!!

Hey baby!!! thanks for texting me as soon as you got up... it made me smile!!! you made my bday good just cuz you text me and told me happy bday... hehehe... well yesterday was fun... the dodgers lost but it's cool cuz i really did have a good time... you and i sooo have to go to another dodger game... i love going to baseball games... but NO ANGEL GAMES!!! they are my enemy!!! lol... it was funny cuz after the game we went to in n out and we got off on an exit that didn't have an on ramp to get back on to the free way, so we got lost for a good 20 mins trying to get back to the freeway... hahaha... it was sooo funny!!! and then we finally got back to ashleys house and olivia (her friend) left and me and ashley watched tool academy... they started a new one... but it looks kinda dumb cuz they have people that look too much like the people from last season... but oh well... i'm sure it'll be hella funny... cuz it always is... specially last nights show... the guy who got kicked off the show didn't want to leave, and the host that's a dude (who eliminates the guys) told the guy who got kicked out "get the f*** outta here" it was crazy... i was like "wow, he has anger issues" lol... it was funny tho... anywho... back to my bday... hehehe... my mom woke me up this morning and she got me pink roses!!! i was like awww!!! & she got me a "happy birthday" balloon... hehehe... and i got money from her... yay!!! lol... i'm excited!!! then again sad... cuz im an old fart... and then every one kept wakin me up last night... like nicki and rachel text me... and then you text me... (and yes we r going to the fair... yay)... then patrick across the street texted me... and his cuzin adriana (the one in arizona... u know her, but idk if you would remember her unless you saw her) text me... then cece called me (which i don't remember talking to who but my phone said i talked to her for 2 mins) hahaha... and then my mommy wakes me up... hahaha... at least my grandma's being nice and figures i'm sleeping... and my daddy never did call me last night... i'm sad... idk why i feel kinda hurt that he didn't call me to tell me to go over or that he'd see me another day... i think he forgot... i mean, my dad never forgets... he always calls me at the latest, the night before my bday... and every time i go down there, he gets me an ice cream cake from basken robins... i remember last yr, my nephew kept walkin to us and kept trying to steal our cake... hahaha... he's funny... i wish you were here with me tho... but i know you and i will celebrate my bday when you get back... i can't wait... i love you sooo much baby!!! more than you could ever imagine... i'll talk to you later... i can't wait til i hear your voice!!! =)

HaPPy aNNiiVeRSaRy BaBy Boy!!!

BABY!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Wooo!!! 5 1/2 yrs!!! Woooo!!!

baby... last night was such a mess... ugh!!! so bad that i still feel like poopie today... my g*ma came to my house and started to tell me how stressed out she was because Liz was asking my g*pa to co-sign for the truck they bought for Andrew... i guess Andrew's dad was going to co-sign, but only if Liz and Andrew agreed to get rid of the dog (they have a labador) so Liz decide to ask my g*pa... but my g*pa has enough problems and bills to be responsible for... like his work took away a week of vacation and they don't put money in his 401 k any more... so that's money that's already being taken away from him... plus g*pa's worried that they might lay him off cuz they've been having like no work and they've been having lay offs after lay offs... so as it is... my g*pa's in no position to be responsible for something so big... cuz that's what a co-signer is... some one they can go to get the money from if the 1st party isn't paying... and when my g*ma told me about all this, it stressed me out cuz i could tell that my g*ma was almost in tears tellin me the story... so then i told my mom cuz i didn't know what to do... and well liz called my house to ask my mom wut the plan was for my b*day... and then my mom asked her about the situation and said "incase you didn't know, louie cuz had a cut back at work, and he's about to retire plus as it is my mother and louie are fighting right now cuz of all this stress" and liz said "so that's not my problem, andrew will lose his job if we don't keep that truck" and my mom got pissed and then told her "well you better hope this doesn't affect my mothers health..." and then my mom hung up... then liz called my g*ma and made a huge deal out of it and then my g*ma called my mom and told her that i shouldn't have told my mom, but my mom told my g*ma "that's too much stress for arlene to have on her shoulders... and she was really concerned, and i'm her mother so she felt the need to tell me" and now everyone is mad at every one... and my mom called liz back and told her off... so now it's like idk what's going to happen... like am i still going to see alexis??? is my g*ma gona talk to me now??? i don't know how to feel baby!!! i feel sooo alone right now... i really wish you were here with me... that and to top it all off... before this happened my mom told my g*ma that we wanted to go to Coco's for my b*day dinner (you know something cheap but still nice) and my g*ma said, "well idk... louie gets out of work and he'd be too tired, so why don't you and arlene just go..." and damn did that hurt... she didn't even say "lets do this another day..." its was a flat out, "no we don't want to"... it's like every time i try to do something with my family for my b*day, it always goes to shit... or something dramatic happens and once again... this yr just proved me right... some times i wish i could just fast forward past my b*day... i really wish you were home already baby... i love you... and i know if u were here, you'd comfort me...

GLaD...

Hello baby... so today you told me you were going to tell you sister that you are moving in with me when you come home... and you did... but to tell you the truth... i've been dreading you telling them... not so much cuz of how they will take it... i mean i know they aren't gona take it too lightly... but i know that at least your mom still has your sisters... as it is... i know your house is a bit over crowded... and now each of your sisters will have their own room... which i'm sure they love... plus they are at an age where they could use some privacy... and it's not like you are moving out with a girl whom you've only known for a few months... but anyways... what i was worried about was that they would some how make you feel guilty and it would make you not want to live with me after all... and i was afraid you would tell me that... cuz i really did a lot to get my family to agree to let you stay here... and i'm sooo happy that my grandma is as supportive as she is... i mean my mom's very supportive, but i expected her and knew she'd be as supportive as she was... but my grandma was the one i was worried about... and not cuz she doesn't like you or some bizar thing like that... but like cuz she's older, and i thought she'd be old fashion about things... but it's funny cuz some times i feel like my mother is more old fashion about things and my grandmother is more modern... it's kinda funny cuz i think it should be the other way around... but hey... my grandmas support means a lot to me... and i'm glad i have both my mothers and my grandmothers support!!! i'm just happy you are living with me!!! omgosh!!! i can't wait... only 36 more days my love!!! i love you soooo much!!!

DoN'T SWeaT iiT!!!

hey baby... i know you've been a lil irritated lately... but really baby... don't worry too much... some times living with certain poeple can really get to you... it'll get you frustrated... specially when you are sooo far away from home... but try to make the best of it... i mean it's only 36 more days until you are home with me... then once in you're in my arms and i am in your's, you'll look back at your training and think "hu, that wasn't too bad"... trust me... at the end of it all you'll be sooo excited that you are coming home to me... lol... i really can't wait... it's going to be sooo great!!! i mean, waking up morning and then seeing you there will feel like a dream come true... i promise i'll be the best that i can be for you... i love you sooo much baby!!! more than you could ever imagine... and i'm going to try to express how much i love you everyday... i mean i think i'm doing a pretty good job considering you are thousands of miles away... i mean i could only do so much... that's why i'm trying to think of cute new ways to show you... like when i text you in the middle of the night so you have something cute to wake up to... or when i send you pictures in the middle of the night or at random times during the day... when i send you cute little voice notes to your cell phone... oh when i send you sexy pictures... i really do try hard to show you... and i hope you see them... oh and i hope you like the drawing i'm doing of the two of us... i know i have a few things to fix on the drawing... but for the most part, i think it's coming out pretty good... i want to color it... but i'm scared i'll mess it up... hehehe... oh well i think i'll just leave it in pencil... lol... and i can't believe poor rachel got her car hit again today... i feel bad for her... that stupid guy and his stupid girlfriend... oh well... all that matters is that me and rachel are okay and she can always fix her car... and then me nicki and celina went to buffalo wild wings tonight... and we put our name down and they told us 20-25 mins... and then right after that nicki's mom called her and said that she needed her car jump started... well we got there and it turns out that it's not her battery... so me, nicki, celina, nicki's mom, and nicki's brother (scott) were trying everything to try to make the car work... but we left after an hour... so we ate Buff's kinda late... but it's fine... we still had fun... lol... well baby i should be going to bed right now... i should have probably already been asleep... well good night my love and i shall be seeing you VERY SOON!!! i can't wait honeybee!!! i love you soo much!!! i hope you never forget that... and if you feel like you are, just let me know, and i promise to try to reasure you that i love you, and i'll do anything to prove it to you!!! mi corazon es tuyos!!! te amo!!! buenas noches!!! muah!!!

CaN'T BeLiieVe iiT!!!

damn baby!!! i can't believe it... soon you will be home... only 43 more days left!!! you and i will be living together... how great is that??? we'll cuddle every night... make love when we feel like it... go to sleep next to each other and wake up in each others arms... i've already cleared out half of my drawers for your home coming... and i've cleared one side of the closet!!! i'll let you choose which side of the bed you want to sleep on... tho i kinda want to sleep on the side closest to the wall... i'll feel safer that way... but either way, i'll be with you so i'll be just as safe!!! i miss you sooo much!!! i want you to be home already!!! i'm sooo excited... i feel like it's a dream... i'm afraid i might wake up... it's such a huge step for us, i feel as tho it's not going to happen... not in a bad way... i guess it's like a wish... and when a wish comes true you can't help but think "is this really going to happen"... i guess i feel like any time i try to do something it either gets held back or it never happens... like with my cosmetology school... it took about 9 months to finally get all my research and get into a school... and now that i finally got it, we had that scare where we might not be able to finish our schooling because of the economy doing so badly... but God was on my side with this one... which i'm very thankful for... and i hope that God is on our side with this one too... i guess i feel like you and i are really far behind... so i guess this will give us time to catch up... i love you baby... and i'll talk to you later when you call me... te amo mucho... con todo mi corazon!!! para siempre!!!

THiiNGS ii HaD MaDe FoR uS...

aNoTHeR Day DoWN!!!

did i ever tell you how much i love you??? cuz if not, then i love you sooo much baby... words can't even begin to describe... you really are my everything... and with out you i am nothing... you truly complete me... i am so blessed to have you in my life... everyday i wake up and my first thought is you... i wonder how u are doing and if my guardian angel is protecting you... and every night before i go to sleep i pray to God and ask him to please send out his best guardian angel to you... i ask him to protect you, keep you strong, watch over you, send you all my love, keep you motivated, keep you happy, and to let you know how much truly love you... and then i blow you a kiss every morning when i wake up and blow you a kiss right before i go to sleep... i think of you all day and wonder what you are doing and if you miss me as much as i am missing you... every decision that i make is based on US... i think of how it will affect us or how it will benefit us both... its such a good feeling to me... i don't know why but i love when i stop and think "okay is this best for the both of us" i love how now i don't think, "what do i want" i love how it's "what do WE want"... and all my decisions are like that... i miss you baby but you'll be home soon!!! keep your head up and always remember that i love you with all my heart and all my soul... always & forever baby, just you & me!!!

oNe STeP CLoSeR!!!

BABY!!! LIFE IS SOOO GOOD!!! we are finally moving in together... i can't believe this is really happening... one step closer to a happy life togther... i can't wait!!! this is really a dream come true... it seemed like the world was against us... but now i feel sooo much better and i feel like the world isn't so bad... i really didn't expect my grandma to have my back like she did... i was actually waiting for her to say "nope, no way"... when really she told me, "louie and i lived together for 10 years until we finally got married"... my mom was just worried about how my grandma would feel and she just wants to make sure you and i do get married and not just settle with living with each other... she was just telling me that some people who live together figure "well we are already together so why get married its just gona cost money"... and she's right... but i know that you and i aren't like that... i know we will get married... and our life will be great together... i know it all takes time... and with us moving in togther, i feel like everything is going to be perfect... or a perfect as it could possibly be... well as you can probably can tell... i didn't go to school today... my teacher got into an accident... so everyone got sent home... well i love you baby... and it's time i start cleaning things out and making room for you in OUR room... =) i love you!!! i'll be seeing you soon!!! muah!!!

SWeeT aND SouR!!!

Did I ever tell you how much I love you? Well if not, then I'm telling you I love you more than anything in the world, just some times, I don't know. I could kick you on ur butt! Lol. Then again what would I do with out you? Well you finally have been writing me all the time and I have been writing you all the time too. I love every time I get a letter from you and I love how you write me a lot. =) It really brightens up my day. And on the days I don't receive a letter I just look at your pictures and see how happy we look together, and that makes me feel a million times better. Some times you do know how to tell me those sweet special words, but then you usually burst my bubble right after. Today was one of those days with one of those bubble busting letters. You finally got it all down right with the whole, "we are moving forward full speed ahead" and that made me hella happy, like I was on cloud 9. But then, you have to turn around and ruin it for me. You turned around and said how some stupid guy told you, "the statistics of couples moving in before marriage have a high divorce rate. so now I'm scared. But that involved buying things together. So you and I will keep everything seprate until we are married. Is that okay?" Baby, I love you, but some times you really do crush me. Look, you and I will make it for ever, so stop trying to sugar coat everything and trying to have a plan B incase plan A with us being together doesn't work. You already told me you want to marry me and I want to marry you. It's plain simple and clear that there isn't any one else out there for us, and you and I can't be with out each other, but here you are throwing things at me that tell me that you are unsure of "US". And that's a big deal to me because as soon as you start to question you make me feel like you aren't confident in us, and that you are waiting for us to fail. Emanuel you can't keep doing this to me. I don't ever get to talk to you quickly (like on the phone), so when you tell me stuff like this I have it on my chest until I write back, you read it, and then reply to me. That usually takes up to two weeks. Emanuel, every time I write you, I write you things that reasure you, and here you are writing me "trying" to reasure me, and it works for that sentence that I read and usually right after you have to throw in something that completely kills the mood. I love you, but baby please learn to knock that off because you are killing me inside. And it seems like every other week you do this. I love you and I know you love me, so stop it with all this stupid "doubt" crap...

a BiiT HuRT...

so... the other day u wrote me... and you really hurt my feelings... baby, EVERYTHING that i do, is to benefit US together as a whole!!! i never consider us as separate... but you seem to be thinking like that... and baby, that hurts... you gotta know that i love you... and everything that i want is involving you and i... i want a house, marriage, childern, our dream cars, our dream careers, baby, i want everything with you... and i just need you to see that... i'm sure the things you said to me was cuz you were feeling insecure... u even told me that u were feeling insecure in the letter pervious... and i know that it's cuz u hadn't got a letter 4rm me yet... but u gotta remember... as soon as you got shipped out there, ur family got a letter w/ ur address... your family don't like me & i didn't want to go thru the ackwardness... so i just had 2 wait until you sent me a letter... and that took 2 weeks... but i had been writing to you the whole time... so as soon as i got ur letter w/ the address, the very next day my mom sent out 7 letters 4rm me that were several pages long each... ur crazy baby... you have to be able to see how much i love you!!! and if you don't, i'm sorry but ur a fool... (((i mean that in the nicest way possible))) but yea, crazy, i really love you... i was feeling like poop the day you told me if this is wut i really wanted... i'm not going to lie... you made me cry... and i cried a lot... i felt sooo hurt... and thinking of it is making my heart drop to my tummy and it's makin me want 2 cry again... but i keep tellin myself, "don't take it personal, he's just feeling insecure, it's nothing big." i mean yea, i know u want 2 make sure i love you but by you saying "well let me know WHEN things change" is saying you expect them to change, and that means DOUBT!!! baby, we can't have doubt in us, or else we minus well give up now... and i don't want either one of us to do that... you really confused me... you've been talking about how happy u are with me and how much you have missed me and how you want to reach our goals again... but then you throw me a curve ball w/ the letter you had sent me... so really baby, think about how what you say is going to affect me... if you only knew how much I DO LOVE YOU!!! if you only knew the things i do each and every day for you... then maybe you would see... i hope one day you will realize it... cuz every one else can see it in my eyes and hear it in my voice any time i mention ur name... and the funny thing is... that's never going to change... stop having doubt... doubt is just going to bring us failure!!! and i know neither one of us wants that... so stop lying 2 urself...

ii CaN STaLK u NoW... JK!!!

YAY!!! yesterday was like the best day ever... to tell you the truth... I started 2 feel really down cuz I hadn't heard 4rm you AT ALL!!! but right when it was really gona start 2 hit me, & me worry, I checked the mail and I got 3 envelopes 4rm you w/ several letters!!! I started to cry a little bit... you really touched me w/ some of the things you said to me... I was like yay!!! Well I sent you out like 6 letters... I think one of the letters was 6 pages, front and back... lol... and the other ones are like 1 or 2 pages front and back... and another one that is like 3 or 4 pages front and back... but u know me... I write big... lol... well my writing isn't that big in the letters I wrote you... All I know is I'm hella excited that I got ur letters and I was finally able 2 send my letters out to you... so you'll have maybe like a couple of days of reading and a couple of days of writing... I only responded 2 a few of ur letters... I didn't wana do it all at once... other wise I'd run out of material to write to you about... Lol... anyways I am at Panera Bread w/ Rachel right now... so I shall write you later my love...

ii GoT oNe!!!

Yay!!! I got your letter yesterday!!! well I knew you had 2 letters in 1 envelope being sent to me for sure... Cuz you told me... Duh!!! lol... well... I finally got them... you told me you gave them the letter the Thrusday, the 21st, to be sent out... so I'm sure they didn't send it out til the 22nd... and I got it yesterday, the 29th... They don't deliver during the weekend and then we had a holiday... so it was technically a 3 day weekend... so it takes about 4 days to get your letters... That's not that bad... well 4 week days... but at least I know when I should expect to get a letter 4rm you... that is, when you send one out... I wish you could call me saturday... I need 2 know if you can receive care packages... cuz if you can't then I don't know how I'm going to send you your charger and battery... Ugh... it's a little stressful... I wish I had your address... I need the next letter... I can't wait... Maybe some time next week... I know you get a letter home that has ur address... but I can't just go down there and ask ur parents for it... I think it'll be easier to deal with all of this "family hates us" stuff when you get home... So we can do it all at once... And both take the heat... And then run off 2gether... Lol... I'm kidding... like we say... "hella hard, but hella worth it"... I miss you baby... I really do... I went 2 the casino last night... kind of a big mistake... I didn't win anything... I know not 2 go on a friday saturday or a sunday... chances of winning are slim to none... Lol... So it's week days 4 me now... my dad said that he is going to help me w/ my bills while I'm in skool... Baby!!! I'm so excited about skool and I'm so excited for you to come home... I've learned soooo much!!! I want to show you... that, and I really want to kiss you baby, and hug you, and tell you I love you, and cuddle w/ you, and and and... hehehe... well you know... =) well baby... I'm going to eat lunch right now... and then I'm going to write you a letter... So ur envelope will have like several letters in there... hehehe... oh and they are colored envelopes... hehehe... I will embarrass you mister... Lol... too bad I don't know my natural sent, other wise I'd find a parfume that smells like me and lightly spray ur letters... I do have a parfume that I did wear... but I don't know if you smelled it on me or not... but I'll try and spray it... =) Well okay... I shall write you later my love... Always and 4ever baby!!! Until the end of time!!!

a LiiL SaD...

So you didn't call me yesterday... i was kinda looking forward to it... but i did read your letter... it made me smile... i figured your phone battery was dead... you said it way dyin... but oh well... it's okay... i'll just dream of you like always... it's like i have you in my life still in my dreams... i'm able to have a date with you and go to exotic places with you... i'm able to feel your touch and the warmth of your body... i even get to kiss you in my dreams... it's sad i can't do any of that right now... but i know it's all worth it in the end... =) i love you baby... and good night... =) muah!!! big kisses!!! =) te amo con todo mi corazon para siempre!!! always and forever baby, just you and me!!!

STaRTiiN 2 FeeL iiT...

I'm sad baby... i really want to see you... I know that it's only 5 months away (a little less now)... but it seems like it's never ending.... the good part is I dream of you EVERY night!!! that's like the high light of my life right now... I still haven't pushed "Sargent Daniel" foot... I keep wondering what you said on the recording... and as much as I want to hear it, I can't come across to press it... Every night before I go to sleep, I kiss the teddy bear on the cheek... I imagine it's your cheek that I'm kissing... And then I hug it, and I give it an eskimo kiss... And then I cuddle w/ it... I also say a little prayer for you... I ask god to watch over you and to keep his best guardian angel w/ you... So if any time you really miss me, know that I am at home waiting for you to come back... And right after I'm done praying, I listen to one of the phone conversations I recorded of you and I... It helps me go to sleep at night... hearing your voice... and hearing you call me baby and tell me "I love you"... Every moring when I wake up I say a little prayer asking god to watch over you and have my guardian angel take care of you for me... It helps me get through the day if I feel like you are okay... I just wish I could kiss you & give you another hug... I know I'll be able to kiss you and hug you soon enough... And I hope my plan works out for when you come home... I'm going to check w/ Nicki and see if she'll give me some tickets and a hotel room for disneyland... Idk if she can get them for sure, but it won't hurt to ask... And my other plan is to go to Catalina Island the weekend when you come home... But we'll see... I have to see if I can scrape up some money together for it... Or who knows... I just might win big in the casino... You know I have very good luck... (sigh) but we'll see... I just can't wait until you come home... when I have you in my arms I might not let you go... just know that I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, because with out you, I have nothing... Always and forever baby, just you and me!!! Mi Corazon es tuyos para siempre!!!

TaLK aBouT SuRPRiiSeS!!!

Baby!!! you text me today!!! that' brightened up my day, once again it was soooo unexpected!!! I'm super happy. I know you can't call me everyday or even text me everyday, but I am surviving. I'm just keeping myself occupied with my schooling. I'm trying to get a few "lab rats" to practice on. So far I have my mommy, Nicki, Rachel & some more of my family! I'm like yay! I'm glad I was able to hear from you today. Today you wrote me, "Surprise again baby. I love u. A lot. And this is the last time, they are taking it tomorrow, but good news is im gonawrite you tonight and hopefully mail it tomorrow. I'm having a really great time so don't worry about me." and I wrote you back, "i love u baby!!! i hae no worries!!! don't worry about me either i'm doing just fine... i'm excited about skool n i'm keeping myslef occupied w/ reading n writing n family do u know if u get 2 use the phone there??? like any days u get an hr or so???" you responded, "No baby i don't know yet. As of right now we don't get phone privilages till blue phase and thats the last one. I'm sorry. It's so nice over here baby. It's like all trees and it's freakin hot. It like burns!" and I wrote you back, "lol damn!!! even bobby gets his phone now!!! oh well it's okay... til wen do you have ur phone???" you haven't responded... but it's okay, I think they might have taken it away, or like you said before you have bad reception. Well i'm really not doing that bad baby. i'm doing just fine. i've been writing you letters, i've been changing my myspace to me and you, i've been readin my gossip girl, which i'm about to start book number 4, and i've been in school, and i'm going to do my homework right now. It's not much homework, it's just a little. It gives me something to do. Nicki wants to go to the movies 2night, but i'm not sure if i want to go cuz i don't know what time she wants to go. but anyways baby i'm going to read now. I love you and i will write you a letter, and as soon as i get ur address i'm sending you a couple of them... =) always and forever baby jst you and me!!!

SuRPRiiSe!!!

So yesterday was the last day he was supposed to have his phone, so him and I were texting each other like crazy, until he had to get on his plane. It was a little sad, but I'm glad I was able to once again record our conversation, and tell him how much I'm proud of him. I told him that I prayed and asked god to please send his best guardian angel to South Carolina to watch over Emanuel while he was away, and to please send Emanuel back home safely to me.

Well in the evening I was hanging out with Rachel, telling her exactly how I feel about things, and what do I get? A surprise text message. From guess who??? EMANUEL!!! Duh!!! We thought he was origionally supposed to give up his phone as soon as he got to Recesion, but they gave it to him for awhile. He told me, "Surprise baby. I love you. It isn't that bad and. I'm having a good time. Good nite love. Just don't count on me everyday. Don't know when the phone goes away. K." and then I wrote him back and said, "awwwww I love u!!!!!! i love u!!!!!!" then he wrote me back and said, "Reception sucks and i have to get up early. So good nite thanx for my angel. It helped me out a lot. And ur support. Good nite my angel." That was the best!!! I'm super happy. I love you baby!!!!

oNe LaST CHaNCe!!!

Monday May 18th wasn't too bad. I was able to see Emanuel again before he officially left to South Carolina. After school I drove all the way down to the Radisson by L.A.X. It sucked cuz I got a little lost. Stupid google maps, they lie. Lol. All that mattered to me was that I was able to see my baby one more time before he left. And let me tell you, I was sooooo greatful to see him! and when I had to leave and say goodbye, I didn't cry in front of him. I walked away and began to cry, but not that much. When I was driving home he text me and told me "don't cry baby, be strong" That made me smile. I love how he knows just what to say and knows how I feel when I don't show him. He just knows me like that! It's the best feeling in the world. I talked to him that night and recorded our conversation, like I have several times before. I don't want to forget what his voice sounds like. I love you Emanuel!!! Always will!!!

iiT'S NeVeR THe RiiGHT TiiMe 2 Say GooDBye!!!

May 17th was the hardest day for me. The night before was a little upsetting to me. But everything is fine now. I have no more worries. All I know is that I love my baby, and I always will! But any ways. Omg! It was soooo HARD to say goodbye to Emanuel. He was leaving for South Carolina for his training, and guess who had to take him? ME!!! I'm not saying I didn't want to, cuz I did, I wanted to be the last one to see him, which I was. But it's also very hard. On the drive down there I had my sunglasses on, and I was crying the whole time. He kept putting like every sad song on that I had in my iPod. It was stressful when I had to give him my last goodbye kiss and last goodbye hug, very heart breaking.

When I finally left his sight and was on my way home, I was doing fine. I mean yeah I was crying, but I felt like I could make it home and be just fine... WRONG!!! All of a sudden, out of no where, I start to breath really hard and really fast. Next thing I know, I start to feel my vision go black to normal then black to normal. I started to freak out and all I could think about was "oh shit! I need to get off the freeway, I don't want to crash, There are a lot of cars around me." So quickly I threw my hazards on and started lane changing. I exited Foothill Ave. and pulled into the nearest shopping center. All I remember next was passing out, and then next thing I knew I had 7 text messages. I didn't tell Nicki or Rachel or any one that I passed out. The next day, I ended up telling Emanuel that I passed out the. But I'm not on tomorrow yet. I finally made it home. Emanuel was still able to text me throughout the night. That was pretty awesome! I told him I read the story that he wrote me. I'm going to post it soon. I was able to sleep okay that night. I was lucky to have my girls Nicki & Rachel to keep my spirit up.

iiT'S oFFiiCiiaL!!!

May 7th Me, Emanuel, & Nichole went camping once again at our favorite place. Rancho Cucamonga Canyons. Omg! It was soooo much fun! I can't wait until Emanuel comes home so we can go camping there again. Anyways, we hiked the hard way there, totally worth it. As soon as we got 2 the spot, I showed Nicki how to set up the tent (for furture refferance). After that I set up all the chairs.

After we were done seting up out camp I began cooking the carne asada and chicken, YUM! After we had a few drinks and finished our food we all decided to take a nap (it was 11:00 pm, and yes it was a nap). Well of course me and Emanuel didn't nap, we were too busy kissing. =)

We finally woke Nicki up, and we went on a little adventure. We decided "hey why not hike in the middle of the night, in the water w/ our water shoes" Omg! what a fun idea! no really, it was fun! we had a blast. Nicki kept falling and made me and Emanuel laugh. It wouldn't have been as fun w/ out her. Hahaha!!! We finally made it back to our camp and decided that this time we should really call it a night.

Once again, only Nicki fell asleep. Me and Emanuel snuck out of our tent for our own little adventure. We wanted some "alone" time. It was perfect, the weather was nice, it was a bright moon, you could see really well in the dark (good for us, but not for people who didn't want to see, hahaha, it's not a typical place where people go to camp, it's mainly for hiking). All I thought to myself was, "I wish this night would stay still for ever and I could live it for ever with him."

After awhile it got cold. So we headed back to the tent. I was tired and so was he. We got into our bed (I brought my air mattress) and snuggled up w/ each other. I faced towards Nicki while Emanuel spooned me and held me tight. I was so comfortable, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else to be but right there w/ him and in his arms. He then leaned closer to my ear and said "arlene?" and i responded, "yea?" He didn't say anything, I got a little worried, so I said, "yes?" hoping it wouldn't be anything bad. He then said, "Will you be my girlfriend again?" Omg! instant cry baby!!! I was balling out in tears, the good kind of tears though. I truned over, still crying, nodding my head yes, kissed him for awhile and then finally was able to say, "yes! of course!"

I was soooooooooo happy! I can't be any happier!

A Bed Time Story I Wrote Him

A Love Story

There once was a girl. She was the most beautiful girl in school. She had the prettiest green eyes, long dark brown hair, her complexion was fair, and she had the brightest smile you could imagine. She must have been a goddess of some sort, for how could god create such a beautiful creature? She always used her beauty to get what ever she wanted. I’m not saying she had a beautiful appearance and an ugly personality, but wait and you’ll see.
Of course being the prettiest girl, she always had her first hand pick of guys. She was now dating the hottest guy of all the school, your typical jock. Always the fresh hair cut, the best of clothes, the nicest car, the charming smile, and the best of looks. He was an automatic catch to any girls’ eye. But some times beauty can be a curse and get you in trouble.
She was so much in love as soon as she saw him, though she thought. We all know that it was lust at first sight, in this case that is. Thinking he was just as pretty as she was, perhaps the male version of her. He was also a smart one, knowing if he had her as a girlfriend he could have the schools champion trophy and a live show off trophy on his arm where ever he went. So he figured why not, what could the harm do? Maybe he would actually grow and really like her, some day. Poor girl, she was in love and he was just using her for his own benefit. She was blinded by love.
She would do everything for him. Any time he needed something, she would volunteer to do it. She loved to spend any moment she had to be with him. She would cook him meals, do his laundry, pretty much anything, in hopes that he would appreciate her and want to spend time with her. But while she was at home doing everything for him, he was out doing his own thing with the boys and even some girls. UT-oh.
He would go out to parties with the guys any chance he had. Of course you would think he would invite his walking trophy for a girlfriend with him, but no. Every time she would ask, he would always tell her “you know you need to do really well in school. I don’t need to study, I already have my scholarship.” Like she thought a good girlfriend would do, she always agreed and hoped that he was saying that because he really cared.
So just like any party, there are your typical beers, kegs, your typical pot heads, drunks, guys, and did I forget to mention, girls, girls who like to get down and have too good of a time. Well at this party there was one girl in particular. As soon as he and his friends got there, right away they went to do a few shots. After shots, why not drink a few beers? After a few beers, why not take a few hits from a near by pot head, who was too high to realize they were just using him for his weed. After a few hits of weed, why not get on the dance floor and dance with the hottest looking girl, who would probably get you in trouble with your girlfriend who was at home doing everything for you?
So the night went on as he was drunk, high, and still dancing. At first dancing wasn’t bad. You know. Just a little bumping and grinding, wouldn’t harm any one, right? Of course not, so he thought. Well after a little bit of dancing, she would work her way around him, and eventually kiss him. Well being intoxicated and all, he didn’t know what he was doing, right? Ha! Can’t fool us! He knew very well what was going on. Did he even think twice about his girlfriend? The answer: No! What a jerk, right?
From kissing, they headed up to the nearest empty room. The girl he was dancing with was completely sober and had no intoxication's what so ever. She even knew he had a girlfriend, but did that stop her? Nope! Quickly after they entered the room, the door shut and locked. Oh yes, you can just imagine what they did. But maybe his girlfriend would find out about this Ron-de-vu! Just maybe, if only some one saw everything and told her what happened?
The weekend pasted and the beautiful girl’s boyfriend hadn’t gotten in contact with her at all. So she figured he was busy and would see him on Monday. As soon as she saw him she handed him his nice fresh smelling clothes. She couldn’t be happier with him so she thought. Like always, he told her, “oh yea, thanks,” and would kiss her on her cheek. All he could think about was that really hot slutty girl from the party. What was she doing? Would she be willing to mess around again? Maybe he could make her his girlfriend instead of the thoughtful caring girlfriend he had now?
During lunch, her boyfriend snuck off campus with the girl from the party, to do who knows what. His beautiful girlfriend couldn’t find him any where. She wondered where he could have gone. She figured he was hanging out with the guys and figured she’d let him be. She had other friends she could hang out with anyways.
The beautiful girl had a very good best friend, who she’d known since she was five years old. They were the best of friends. They always told each other everything. This was definitely a friendship that would last forever. And no, I’m not talking about a girl best friend. This friend was a guy best friend. Hmmm…
He was a nice fellow. Good looking, charming, nice smile, dark brown hair, and had a nice tan. He didn’t drive the best of cars, but had a nice one. He definitely knew how to treat a lady with respect. But of course, the one girl that he wanted was taken by a mistreating jock. And guess who was at the party that night the boyfriend cheated on her? Oh yes, the best friend was.
When the pretty girl approached her best friend, she could tell that something was bothering him. As best friends, you just know when something is wrong. She sat next to him looking concerned and asked him, “What’s wrong Hun?” He looked up at her with his dark deep blue eyes, and said, “I need to tell you something.” Quickly, her heart dropped to her stomach, she knew when she was going to receive bad news. She hesitantly said, “Okay, so tell me, what’s up” He told her everything he saw happen at the party involving her boyfriend and the slutty girl. She couldn’t believe what she was hearing, there was no way her boyfriend could do that to her, he loved her. She became very upset with her best friend, for she thought he was just lying. He swore on everything that he was telling the truth.
She didn’t care; she couldn’t believe him, even after they have been best friends since they were five. See, when your in love, you can quickly betray other people who have always loved you. Some times love can be a bit of a curse, you just have to know when you’re blinded by love. The best friend knew she wouldn’t believe him unless she actually saw it for herself. He remembered that he saw the jock going to his car as the bell had rang to go to lunch. The best friend grabbed the beautiful girls hand and said, “I will show you.” She was in tears because deep down she knew he was telling her the truth.
They approached the car. The beautiful girl’s heart dropped to the pit of her stomach. She was very nervous and prayed that her best friend was just joking with her. But no, he was telling the truth, and right in front of her was the proof. She saw her boyfriend kissing the girl from the party. She said, “I’m sorry for questioning you. You were only trying to help me like a good friend.” After she said that, she looked up at him, directly in his eyes, and for some reason, she stopped crying and didn’t feel sad any more.
The boyfriend, soon to be ex, stopped kissing the girl from the party. He jumped out of the car as soon as he saw his girlfriend, wondering if she had seen anything. He looked at her and said, “Uh, Hi baby. We were…” but the beautiful girl just looked at him plainly and said, “Oh please continue. Don’t stop on the account of us.” Crap! He had been caught red handed, or should I say red lipped, he had the evidence all over his lips, the red lipstick the girl from the party wore. All of a sudden, his heart fell to his stomach, a feeling he never had before. He realized, he did actually grow to love his girlfriend. He started to beg and plead, but for him, it was too late. She was already looking at her best friend like she had once looked at him. He ignored the pain he had and figured at least he would now have a hot looking girlfriend who was really aggressive like he liked.
Sorry mister jock. The hot girl from the party told him she too was in a relationship, and if she continued talking to him it would jeopardize her relationship. So the jock figured he got what he deserved. But no worries, he still had his scholarship. At least he had one thing great still going for him. Enough about the jock, let’s get back to what is going to happen after the beautiful stopped crying.
After she was done declaring her and her boyfriend were over, she looked back into her best friends eyes. She felt so lost in them, and he felt the same while he gazed into her eyes too. Had he finally got the girl of his dreams he thought. Had the love of her life really been right in front of her face this whole time and she hadn’t realized it? After a few moments, they had the final test to see if it would be something or not. A kiss, it’s the best way to know if there was a future for them or not.
They both closed their eyes. Butterflies developed in their stomachs. The distance between their lips seemed so far away, when only they were a few inches from each other. Every second was getting more intense than the last. Finally, their lips met. And as silly as it might sound, they did see fireworks, they did get the lovey dovey feeling.
After their beautiful kiss, they smiled and looked up at each other. The best friend asked the beautiful girl, “Is this what we have been missing out on this whole time?” she responded, “yes, but it was well worth the wait.”
This was once was just a best friendship that would never end. Eventually, this friendship turned into love. And just like any story, of course they lived happily ever after.

Never over look anything; what you want might be right in front of you all along.
Things come to people who wait, some times haste is waste.

By: Arlene Rojas

P.S.
Thank you for giving me hope in everything.
You gave me my romance back.
I’m always going to remember you.
Always and forever!

His Bed Time Story He Wrote Me

Romeo and Juliet

there was once a young woman a beauty you could say, who had everything but felt like she was missing something. when she started to think...

they were both young when they first saw each other, she closed her eyes and the flash backs began.... she just didn't know what she was missing she tried many things... she was studious and always got what she wanted except for one thing she figured it out.. love... she saw all her friends leaving her for their bf except for the closer friends that she had.. she didn't know what to think she felt so insecure.... she tried to keep busy by playing sports and even joining clubs.. but her friends love just wasn't enough... but little did she know everything was about to change.. a typical day she went to school and out of the blue the teacher called them for an announcement... " we have a new student today children make him feel at home." little did she know she was Juliet and her romeo had just walked into her life... she felt something as soon as he saw her way and little did she know that he felt the same way... from that day she spent hours staring at him from a far and admiring him he was everything she wanted yet she didn't know anything about him... he too stared from a far but only when she wasn't looking.. he felt like he could stare at her for hours... day dream and everything would be OK.. but he was a timid young mad a gentleman if you will... at a very young age... way too mature for his age... he knew right away that there was something special about her he just didn't know what and her wanted to find out what that was.. neither one knew about the other ones liking until one day he decided to write her a note... he left it in her locker and walked away it said...."i cant help it anymore something about you just seems to catch my eye and take my breath away along with my heart. i think you re beautiful and i would love to get to know you" the girl got the note the next day and she was ecstatic! she couldn't believe her eyes she felt like the luckiest girl in the world. but what was she to do now? she thought long and hard what to do as he still watched her from a far... as she was going to P.E. she just so happened to run into him they bumped heads.. she didn't know what to do so she just kissed him on the lips giggled and then ran.... a complete accident most would say but she knew what she was doing...

the boy was so shocked he didn't know what to do, he blushed and then ran to tell his friends of the news... he was so happy. she ran and ran and ran so much so hard that her adrenalin bursted and gave her more strength and also fueled her smile... she ran all the way home that day... but now she didn't know what to do the next day... unfortunately her principal did... he knew what to do with kids that liked to leave school... she was suspended.. for five days and the school year was almost coming to an end. the boy found out what red roses meant and decided to pick her some from his moms garden... the next day he waited outside the school in the morning in the cold... as he heard the first bell he looked around and still no girl.. yet he didn't give up he did that every day for five days his sadness reflected on the roses as they began to die. and she just never showed up... when the following Monday had come he decided to just move on and forget about the girl when he looked back he saw her walking into the school... his heart began to race as he ran towards her... " there he is!" the security yelled out... " this is the boy who just likes to sit out here and not go to class" the principal had to make an example too many kids were going to class late so he expelled him.. when they both found out about the news they both let out a tear... to make matters worse the following week the girl and her family had moved away and destiny as it seemed to be had driven them apart. they lived their lives and moved on or so they thought. we all know that faith always has other plans. one typical new school day. the girl walks to class and sits waiting for the day to begin.. when she looked up the boy was standing in front of her... " i missed you so much" he said.. and went to his seat... she was shocked of what just happened. they both looked at each other and smiled all period.. by now they were in high school. and in 11Th grade. the boy knew he wanted to do something special so he prepared something. he was in a club at school. and so he got help from his friends.. he got a brilliant idea to help the school and his problem. at lunch the girl looked for him but he was no where in sight. " just my luck" thought the girl.. " he probably has second lunch" when out of no where the principal walks up behind her and grabs her arm.. " come with me" he said. she was scared and didn't know what to do... "i did nothing wrong!" she yelled.. as he took her to the middle of the quad she looked up and saw an alter and her boy with a tux.... a fake priest and a wedding gown... he knelled to the ground and pulled out a ring and said" marry me Juliet you never have to be alone." she fell to tears and said yes... every girl let out an aw... and then other guys around them did the same... the school had made a lot of money that on fake marriages... " till death due us part, ill never let you leave my sight." he said." i wouldn't have it any other way." " you may kiss the bride" the priest said and they had their real first kiss... and as most stories they lived happily ever after.....



Author; "Daniel C." (((Emanuel Rendon)))



P.S. you ow me a story too...
and ow it to yourself to make your life
a love story as well i know you have it
in you... there are too many coincidences with
the both of you. there has to be a reason why...
"food for thought"

Soon 2 Be Sad Like All The Rest...

I don't want May 22nd to come...