HaPPy aNNiiVeRSaRy BaBy Boy!!!

BABY!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Wooo!!! 5 1/2 yrs!!! Woooo!!!

baby... last night was such a mess... ugh!!! so bad that i still feel like poopie today... my g*ma came to my house and started to tell me how stressed out she was because Liz was asking my g*pa to co-sign for the truck they bought for Andrew... i guess Andrew's dad was going to co-sign, but only if Liz and Andrew agreed to get rid of the dog (they have a labador) so Liz decide to ask my g*pa... but my g*pa has enough problems and bills to be responsible for... like his work took away a week of vacation and they don't put money in his 401 k any more... so that's money that's already being taken away from him... plus g*pa's worried that they might lay him off cuz they've been having like no work and they've been having lay offs after lay offs... so as it is... my g*pa's in no position to be responsible for something so big... cuz that's what a co-signer is... some one they can go to get the money from if the 1st party isn't paying... and when my g*ma told me about all this, it stressed me out cuz i could tell that my g*ma was almost in tears tellin me the story... so then i told my mom cuz i didn't know what to do... and well liz called my house to ask my mom wut the plan was for my b*day... and then my mom asked her about the situation and said "incase you didn't know, louie cuz had a cut back at work, and he's about to retire plus as it is my mother and louie are fighting right now cuz of all this stress" and liz said "so that's not my problem, andrew will lose his job if we don't keep that truck" and my mom got pissed and then told her "well you better hope this doesn't affect my mothers health..." and then my mom hung up... then liz called my g*ma and made a huge deal out of it and then my g*ma called my mom and told her that i shouldn't have told my mom, but my mom told my g*ma "that's too much stress for arlene to have on her shoulders... and she was really concerned, and i'm her mother so she felt the need to tell me" and now everyone is mad at every one... and my mom called liz back and told her off... so now it's like idk what's going to happen... like am i still going to see alexis??? is my g*ma gona talk to me now??? i don't know how to feel baby!!! i feel sooo alone right now... i really wish you were here with me... that and to top it all off... before this happened my mom told my g*ma that we wanted to go to Coco's for my b*day dinner (you know something cheap but still nice) and my g*ma said, "well idk... louie gets out of work and he'd be too tired, so why don't you and arlene just go..." and damn did that hurt... she didn't even say "lets do this another day..." its was a flat out, "no we don't want to"... it's like every time i try to do something with my family for my b*day, it always goes to shit... or something dramatic happens and once again... this yr just proved me right... some times i wish i could just fast forward past my b*day... i really wish you were home already baby... i love you... and i know if u were here, you'd comfort me...

GLaD...

Hello baby... so today you told me you were going to tell you sister that you are moving in with me when you come home... and you did... but to tell you the truth... i've been dreading you telling them... not so much cuz of how they will take it... i mean i know they aren't gona take it too lightly... but i know that at least your mom still has your sisters... as it is... i know your house is a bit over crowded... and now each of your sisters will have their own room... which i'm sure they love... plus they are at an age where they could use some privacy... and it's not like you are moving out with a girl whom you've only known for a few months... but anyways... what i was worried about was that they would some how make you feel guilty and it would make you not want to live with me after all... and i was afraid you would tell me that... cuz i really did a lot to get my family to agree to let you stay here... and i'm sooo happy that my grandma is as supportive as she is... i mean my mom's very supportive, but i expected her and knew she'd be as supportive as she was... but my grandma was the one i was worried about... and not cuz she doesn't like you or some bizar thing like that... but like cuz she's older, and i thought she'd be old fashion about things... but it's funny cuz some times i feel like my mother is more old fashion about things and my grandmother is more modern... it's kinda funny cuz i think it should be the other way around... but hey... my grandmas support means a lot to me... and i'm glad i have both my mothers and my grandmothers support!!! i'm just happy you are living with me!!! omgosh!!! i can't wait... only 36 more days my love!!! i love you soooo much!!!

DoN'T SWeaT iiT!!!

hey baby... i know you've been a lil irritated lately... but really baby... don't worry too much... some times living with certain poeple can really get to you... it'll get you frustrated... specially when you are sooo far away from home... but try to make the best of it... i mean it's only 36 more days until you are home with me... then once in you're in my arms and i am in your's, you'll look back at your training and think "hu, that wasn't too bad"... trust me... at the end of it all you'll be sooo excited that you are coming home to me... lol... i really can't wait... it's going to be sooo great!!! i mean, waking up morning and then seeing you there will feel like a dream come true... i promise i'll be the best that i can be for you... i love you sooo much baby!!! more than you could ever imagine... and i'm going to try to express how much i love you everyday... i mean i think i'm doing a pretty good job considering you are thousands of miles away... i mean i could only do so much... that's why i'm trying to think of cute new ways to show you... like when i text you in the middle of the night so you have something cute to wake up to... or when i send you pictures in the middle of the night or at random times during the day... when i send you cute little voice notes to your cell phone... oh when i send you sexy pictures... i really do try hard to show you... and i hope you see them... oh and i hope you like the drawing i'm doing of the two of us... i know i have a few things to fix on the drawing... but for the most part, i think it's coming out pretty good... i want to color it... but i'm scared i'll mess it up... hehehe... oh well i think i'll just leave it in pencil... lol... and i can't believe poor rachel got her car hit again today... i feel bad for her... that stupid guy and his stupid girlfriend... oh well... all that matters is that me and rachel are okay and she can always fix her car... and then me nicki and celina went to buffalo wild wings tonight... and we put our name down and they told us 20-25 mins... and then right after that nicki's mom called her and said that she needed her car jump started... well we got there and it turns out that it's not her battery... so me, nicki, celina, nicki's mom, and nicki's brother (scott) were trying everything to try to make the car work... but we left after an hour... so we ate Buff's kinda late... but it's fine... we still had fun... lol... well baby i should be going to bed right now... i should have probably already been asleep... well good night my love and i shall be seeing you VERY SOON!!! i can't wait honeybee!!! i love you soo much!!! i hope you never forget that... and if you feel like you are, just let me know, and i promise to try to reasure you that i love you, and i'll do anything to prove it to you!!! mi corazon es tuyos!!! te amo!!! buenas noches!!! muah!!!

CaN'T BeLiieVe iiT!!!

damn baby!!! i can't believe it... soon you will be home... only 43 more days left!!! you and i will be living together... how great is that??? we'll cuddle every night... make love when we feel like it... go to sleep next to each other and wake up in each others arms... i've already cleared out half of my drawers for your home coming... and i've cleared one side of the closet!!! i'll let you choose which side of the bed you want to sleep on... tho i kinda want to sleep on the side closest to the wall... i'll feel safer that way... but either way, i'll be with you so i'll be just as safe!!! i miss you sooo much!!! i want you to be home already!!! i'm sooo excited... i feel like it's a dream... i'm afraid i might wake up... it's such a huge step for us, i feel as tho it's not going to happen... not in a bad way... i guess it's like a wish... and when a wish comes true you can't help but think "is this really going to happen"... i guess i feel like any time i try to do something it either gets held back or it never happens... like with my cosmetology school... it took about 9 months to finally get all my research and get into a school... and now that i finally got it, we had that scare where we might not be able to finish our schooling because of the economy doing so badly... but God was on my side with this one... which i'm very thankful for... and i hope that God is on our side with this one too... i guess i feel like you and i are really far behind... so i guess this will give us time to catch up... i love you baby... and i'll talk to you later when you call me... te amo mucho... con todo mi corazon!!! para siempre!!!

THiiNGS ii HaD MaDe FoR uS...

aNoTHeR Day DoWN!!!

did i ever tell you how much i love you??? cuz if not, then i love you sooo much baby... words can't even begin to describe... you really are my everything... and with out you i am nothing... you truly complete me... i am so blessed to have you in my life... everyday i wake up and my first thought is you... i wonder how u are doing and if my guardian angel is protecting you... and every night before i go to sleep i pray to God and ask him to please send out his best guardian angel to you... i ask him to protect you, keep you strong, watch over you, send you all my love, keep you motivated, keep you happy, and to let you know how much truly love you... and then i blow you a kiss every morning when i wake up and blow you a kiss right before i go to sleep... i think of you all day and wonder what you are doing and if you miss me as much as i am missing you... every decision that i make is based on US... i think of how it will affect us or how it will benefit us both... its such a good feeling to me... i don't know why but i love when i stop and think "okay is this best for the both of us" i love how now i don't think, "what do i want" i love how it's "what do WE want"... and all my decisions are like that... i miss you baby but you'll be home soon!!! keep your head up and always remember that i love you with all my heart and all my soul... always & forever baby, just you & me!!!

oNe STeP CLoSeR!!!

BABY!!! LIFE IS SOOO GOOD!!! we are finally moving in together... i can't believe this is really happening... one step closer to a happy life togther... i can't wait!!! this is really a dream come true... it seemed like the world was against us... but now i feel sooo much better and i feel like the world isn't so bad... i really didn't expect my grandma to have my back like she did... i was actually waiting for her to say "nope, no way"... when really she told me, "louie and i lived together for 10 years until we finally got married"... my mom was just worried about how my grandma would feel and she just wants to make sure you and i do get married and not just settle with living with each other... she was just telling me that some people who live together figure "well we are already together so why get married its just gona cost money"... and she's right... but i know that you and i aren't like that... i know we will get married... and our life will be great together... i know it all takes time... and with us moving in togther, i feel like everything is going to be perfect... or a perfect as it could possibly be... well as you can probably can tell... i didn't go to school today... my teacher got into an accident... so everyone got sent home... well i love you baby... and it's time i start cleaning things out and making room for you in OUR room... =) i love you!!! i'll be seeing you soon!!! muah!!!