HaPPy aNNiiVeRSaRy BaBy Boy!!!

BABY!!! HAPPY ANNIVERSARY!!! Wooo!!! 5 1/2 yrs!!! Woooo!!!

baby... last night was such a mess... ugh!!! so bad that i still feel like poopie today... my g*ma came to my house and started to tell me how stressed out she was because Liz was asking my g*pa to co-sign for the truck they bought for Andrew... i guess Andrew's dad was going to co-sign, but only if Liz and Andrew agreed to get rid of the dog (they have a labador) so Liz decide to ask my g*pa... but my g*pa has enough problems and bills to be responsible for... like his work took away a week of vacation and they don't put money in his 401 k any more... so that's money that's already being taken away from him... plus g*pa's worried that they might lay him off cuz they've been having like no work and they've been having lay offs after lay offs... so as it is... my g*pa's in no position to be responsible for something so big... cuz that's what a co-signer is... some one they can go to get the money from if the 1st party isn't paying... and when my g*ma told me about all this, it stressed me out cuz i could tell that my g*ma was almost in tears tellin me the story... so then i told my mom cuz i didn't know what to do... and well liz called my house to ask my mom wut the plan was for my b*day... and then my mom asked her about the situation and said "incase you didn't know, louie cuz had a cut back at work, and he's about to retire plus as it is my mother and louie are fighting right now cuz of all this stress" and liz said "so that's not my problem, andrew will lose his job if we don't keep that truck" and my mom got pissed and then told her "well you better hope this doesn't affect my mothers health..." and then my mom hung up... then liz called my g*ma and made a huge deal out of it and then my g*ma called my mom and told her that i shouldn't have told my mom, but my mom told my g*ma "that's too much stress for arlene to have on her shoulders... and she was really concerned, and i'm her mother so she felt the need to tell me" and now everyone is mad at every one... and my mom called liz back and told her off... so now it's like idk what's going to happen... like am i still going to see alexis??? is my g*ma gona talk to me now??? i don't know how to feel baby!!! i feel sooo alone right now... i really wish you were here with me... that and to top it all off... before this happened my mom told my g*ma that we wanted to go to Coco's for my b*day dinner (you know something cheap but still nice) and my g*ma said, "well idk... louie gets out of work and he'd be too tired, so why don't you and arlene just go..." and damn did that hurt... she didn't even say "lets do this another day..." its was a flat out, "no we don't want to"... it's like every time i try to do something with my family for my b*day, it always goes to shit... or something dramatic happens and once again... this yr just proved me right... some times i wish i could just fast forward past my b*day... i really wish you were home already baby... i love you... and i know if u were here, you'd comfort me...