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I'm sad baby... i really want to see you... I know that it's only 5 months away (a little less now)... but it seems like it's never ending.... the good part is I dream of you EVERY night!!! that's like the high light of my life right now... I still haven't pushed "Sargent Daniel" foot... I keep wondering what you said on the recording... and as much as I want to hear it, I can't come across to press it... Every night before I go to sleep, I kiss the teddy bear on the cheek... I imagine it's your cheek that I'm kissing... And then I hug it, and I give it an eskimo kiss... And then I cuddle w/ it... I also say a little prayer for you... I ask god to watch over you and to keep his best guardian angel w/ you... So if any time you really miss me, know that I am at home waiting for you to come back... And right after I'm done praying, I listen to one of the phone conversations I recorded of you and I... It helps me go to sleep at night... hearing your voice... and hearing you call me baby and tell me "I love you"... Every moring when I wake up I say a little prayer asking god to watch over you and have my guardian angel take care of you for me... It helps me get through the day if I feel like you are okay... I just wish I could kiss you & give you another hug... I know I'll be able to kiss you and hug you soon enough... And I hope my plan works out for when you come home... I'm going to check w/ Nicki and see if she'll give me some tickets and a hotel room for disneyland... Idk if she can get them for sure, but it won't hurt to ask... And my other plan is to go to Catalina Island the weekend when you come home... But we'll see... I have to see if I can scrape up some money together for it... Or who knows... I just might win big in the casino... You know I have very good luck... (sigh) but we'll see... I just can't wait until you come home... when I have you in my arms I might not let you go... just know that I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, because with out you, I have nothing... Always and forever baby, just you and me!!! Mi Corazon es tuyos para siempre!!!