a BiiT HuRT...

so... the other day u wrote me... and you really hurt my feelings... baby, EVERYTHING that i do, is to benefit US together as a whole!!! i never consider us as separate... but you seem to be thinking like that... and baby, that hurts... you gotta know that i love you... and everything that i want is involving you and i... i want a house, marriage, childern, our dream cars, our dream careers, baby, i want everything with you... and i just need you to see that... i'm sure the things you said to me was cuz you were feeling insecure... u even told me that u were feeling insecure in the letter pervious... and i know that it's cuz u hadn't got a letter 4rm me yet... but u gotta remember... as soon as you got shipped out there, ur family got a letter w/ ur address... your family don't like me & i didn't want to go thru the ackwardness... so i just had 2 wait until you sent me a letter... and that took 2 weeks... but i had been writing to you the whole time... so as soon as i got ur letter w/ the address, the very next day my mom sent out 7 letters 4rm me that were several pages long each... ur crazy baby... you have to be able to see how much i love you!!! and if you don't, i'm sorry but ur a fool... (((i mean that in the nicest way possible))) but yea, crazy, i really love you... i was feeling like poop the day you told me if this is wut i really wanted... i'm not going to lie... you made me cry... and i cried a lot... i felt sooo hurt... and thinking of it is making my heart drop to my tummy and it's makin me want 2 cry again... but i keep tellin myself, "don't take it personal, he's just feeling insecure, it's nothing big." i mean yea, i know u want 2 make sure i love you but by you saying "well let me know WHEN things change" is saying you expect them to change, and that means DOUBT!!! baby, we can't have doubt in us, or else we minus well give up now... and i don't want either one of us to do that... you really confused me... you've been talking about how happy u are with me and how much you have missed me and how you want to reach our goals again... but then you throw me a curve ball w/ the letter you had sent me... so really baby, think about how what you say is going to affect me... if you only knew how much I DO LOVE YOU!!! if you only knew the things i do each and every day for you... then maybe you would see... i hope one day you will realize it... cuz every one else can see it in my eyes and hear it in my voice any time i mention ur name... and the funny thing is... that's never going to change... stop having doubt... doubt is just going to bring us failure!!! and i know neither one of us wants that... so stop lying 2 urself...