iiT'S NeVeR THe RiiGHT TiiMe 2 Say GooDBye!!!

May 17th was the hardest day for me. The night before was a little upsetting to me. But everything is fine now. I have no more worries. All I know is that I love my baby, and I always will! But any ways. Omg! It was soooo HARD to say goodbye to Emanuel. He was leaving for South Carolina for his training, and guess who had to take him? ME!!! I'm not saying I didn't want to, cuz I did, I wanted to be the last one to see him, which I was. But it's also very hard. On the drive down there I had my sunglasses on, and I was crying the whole time. He kept putting like every sad song on that I had in my iPod. It was stressful when I had to give him my last goodbye kiss and last goodbye hug, very heart breaking.

When I finally left his sight and was on my way home, I was doing fine. I mean yeah I was crying, but I felt like I could make it home and be just fine... WRONG!!! All of a sudden, out of no where, I start to breath really hard and really fast. Next thing I know, I start to feel my vision go black to normal then black to normal. I started to freak out and all I could think about was "oh shit! I need to get off the freeway, I don't want to crash, There are a lot of cars around me." So quickly I threw my hazards on and started lane changing. I exited Foothill Ave. and pulled into the nearest shopping center. All I remember next was passing out, and then next thing I knew I had 7 text messages. I didn't tell Nicki or Rachel or any one that I passed out. The next day, I ended up telling Emanuel that I passed out the. But I'm not on tomorrow yet. I finally made it home. Emanuel was still able to text me throughout the night. That was pretty awesome! I told him I read the story that he wrote me. I'm going to post it soon. I was able to sleep okay that night. I was lucky to have my girls Nicki & Rachel to keep my spirit up.