ii GoT oNe!!!

Yay!!! I got your letter yesterday!!! well I knew you had 2 letters in 1 envelope being sent to me for sure... Cuz you told me... Duh!!! lol... well... I finally got them... you told me you gave them the letter the Thrusday, the 21st, to be sent out... so I'm sure they didn't send it out til the 22nd... and I got it yesterday, the 29th... They don't deliver during the weekend and then we had a holiday... so it was technically a 3 day weekend... so it takes about 4 days to get your letters... That's not that bad... well 4 week days... but at least I know when I should expect to get a letter 4rm you... that is, when you send one out... I wish you could call me saturday... I need 2 know if you can receive care packages... cuz if you can't then I don't know how I'm going to send you your charger and battery... Ugh... it's a little stressful... I wish I had your address... I need the next letter... I can't wait... Maybe some time next week... I know you get a letter home that has ur address... but I can't just go down there and ask ur parents for it... I think it'll be easier to deal with all of this "family hates us" stuff when you get home... So we can do it all at once... And both take the heat... And then run off 2gether... Lol... I'm kidding... like we say... "hella hard, but hella worth it"... I miss you baby... I really do... I went 2 the casino last night... kind of a big mistake... I didn't win anything... I know not 2 go on a friday saturday or a sunday... chances of winning are slim to none... Lol... So it's week days 4 me now... my dad said that he is going to help me w/ my bills while I'm in skool... Baby!!! I'm so excited about skool and I'm so excited for you to come home... I've learned soooo much!!! I want to show you... that, and I really want to kiss you baby, and hug you, and tell you I love you, and cuddle w/ you, and and and... hehehe... well you know... =) well baby... I'm going to eat lunch right now... and then I'm going to write you a letter... So ur envelope will have like several letters in there... hehehe... oh and they are colored envelopes... hehehe... I will embarrass you mister... Lol... too bad I don't know my natural sent, other wise I'd find a parfume that smells like me and lightly spray ur letters... I do have a parfume that I did wear... but I don't know if you smelled it on me or not... but I'll try and spray it... =) Well okay... I shall write you later my love... Always and 4ever baby!!! Until the end of time!!!

a LiiL SaD...

So you didn't call me yesterday... i was kinda looking forward to it... but i did read your letter... it made me smile... i figured your phone battery was dead... you said it way dyin... but oh well... it's okay... i'll just dream of you like always... it's like i have you in my life still in my dreams... i'm able to have a date with you and go to exotic places with you... i'm able to feel your touch and the warmth of your body... i even get to kiss you in my dreams... it's sad i can't do any of that right now... but i know it's all worth it in the end... =) i love you baby... and good night... =) muah!!! big kisses!!! =) te amo con todo mi corazon para siempre!!! always and forever baby, just you and me!!!

STaRTiiN 2 FeeL iiT...

I'm sad baby... i really want to see you... I know that it's only 5 months away (a little less now)... but it seems like it's never ending.... the good part is I dream of you EVERY night!!! that's like the high light of my life right now... I still haven't pushed "Sargent Daniel" foot... I keep wondering what you said on the recording... and as much as I want to hear it, I can't come across to press it... Every night before I go to sleep, I kiss the teddy bear on the cheek... I imagine it's your cheek that I'm kissing... And then I hug it, and I give it an eskimo kiss... And then I cuddle w/ it... I also say a little prayer for you... I ask god to watch over you and to keep his best guardian angel w/ you... So if any time you really miss me, know that I am at home waiting for you to come back... And right after I'm done praying, I listen to one of the phone conversations I recorded of you and I... It helps me go to sleep at night... hearing your voice... and hearing you call me baby and tell me "I love you"... Every moring when I wake up I say a little prayer asking god to watch over you and have my guardian angel take care of you for me... It helps me get through the day if I feel like you are okay... I just wish I could kiss you & give you another hug... I know I'll be able to kiss you and hug you soon enough... And I hope my plan works out for when you come home... I'm going to check w/ Nicki and see if she'll give me some tickets and a hotel room for disneyland... Idk if she can get them for sure, but it won't hurt to ask... And my other plan is to go to Catalina Island the weekend when you come home... But we'll see... I have to see if I can scrape up some money together for it... Or who knows... I just might win big in the casino... You know I have very good luck... (sigh) but we'll see... I just can't wait until you come home... when I have you in my arms I might not let you go... just know that I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you, because with out you, I have nothing... Always and forever baby, just you and me!!! Mi Corazon es tuyos para siempre!!!

TaLK aBouT SuRPRiiSeS!!!

Baby!!! you text me today!!! that' brightened up my day, once again it was soooo unexpected!!! I'm super happy. I know you can't call me everyday or even text me everyday, but I am surviving. I'm just keeping myself occupied with my schooling. I'm trying to get a few "lab rats" to practice on. So far I have my mommy, Nicki, Rachel & some more of my family! I'm like yay! I'm glad I was able to hear from you today. Today you wrote me, "Surprise again baby. I love u. A lot. And this is the last time, they are taking it tomorrow, but good news is im gonawrite you tonight and hopefully mail it tomorrow. I'm having a really great time so don't worry about me." and I wrote you back, "i love u baby!!! i hae no worries!!! don't worry about me either i'm doing just fine... i'm excited about skool n i'm keeping myslef occupied w/ reading n writing n family do u know if u get 2 use the phone there??? like any days u get an hr or so???" you responded, "No baby i don't know yet. As of right now we don't get phone privilages till blue phase and thats the last one. I'm sorry. It's so nice over here baby. It's like all trees and it's freakin hot. It like burns!" and I wrote you back, "lol damn!!! even bobby gets his phone now!!! oh well it's okay... til wen do you have ur phone???" you haven't responded... but it's okay, I think they might have taken it away, or like you said before you have bad reception. Well i'm really not doing that bad baby. i'm doing just fine. i've been writing you letters, i've been changing my myspace to me and you, i've been readin my gossip girl, which i'm about to start book number 4, and i've been in school, and i'm going to do my homework right now. It's not much homework, it's just a little. It gives me something to do. Nicki wants to go to the movies 2night, but i'm not sure if i want to go cuz i don't know what time she wants to go. but anyways baby i'm going to read now. I love you and i will write you a letter, and as soon as i get ur address i'm sending you a couple of them... =) always and forever baby jst you and me!!!

SuRPRiiSe!!!

So yesterday was the last day he was supposed to have his phone, so him and I were texting each other like crazy, until he had to get on his plane. It was a little sad, but I'm glad I was able to once again record our conversation, and tell him how much I'm proud of him. I told him that I prayed and asked god to please send his best guardian angel to South Carolina to watch over Emanuel while he was away, and to please send Emanuel back home safely to me.

Well in the evening I was hanging out with Rachel, telling her exactly how I feel about things, and what do I get? A surprise text message. From guess who??? EMANUEL!!! Duh!!! We thought he was origionally supposed to give up his phone as soon as he got to Recesion, but they gave it to him for awhile. He told me, "Surprise baby. I love you. It isn't that bad and. I'm having a good time. Good nite love. Just don't count on me everyday. Don't know when the phone goes away. K." and then I wrote him back and said, "awwwww I love u!!!!!! i love u!!!!!!" then he wrote me back and said, "Reception sucks and i have to get up early. So good nite thanx for my angel. It helped me out a lot. And ur support. Good nite my angel." That was the best!!! I'm super happy. I love you baby!!!!

oNe LaST CHaNCe!!!

Monday May 18th wasn't too bad. I was able to see Emanuel again before he officially left to South Carolina. After school I drove all the way down to the Radisson by L.A.X. It sucked cuz I got a little lost. Stupid google maps, they lie. Lol. All that mattered to me was that I was able to see my baby one more time before he left. And let me tell you, I was sooooo greatful to see him! and when I had to leave and say goodbye, I didn't cry in front of him. I walked away and began to cry, but not that much. When I was driving home he text me and told me "don't cry baby, be strong" That made me smile. I love how he knows just what to say and knows how I feel when I don't show him. He just knows me like that! It's the best feeling in the world. I talked to him that night and recorded our conversation, like I have several times before. I don't want to forget what his voice sounds like. I love you Emanuel!!! Always will!!!

iiT'S NeVeR THe RiiGHT TiiMe 2 Say GooDBye!!!

May 17th was the hardest day for me. The night before was a little upsetting to me. But everything is fine now. I have no more worries. All I know is that I love my baby, and I always will! But any ways. Omg! It was soooo HARD to say goodbye to Emanuel. He was leaving for South Carolina for his training, and guess who had to take him? ME!!! I'm not saying I didn't want to, cuz I did, I wanted to be the last one to see him, which I was. But it's also very hard. On the drive down there I had my sunglasses on, and I was crying the whole time. He kept putting like every sad song on that I had in my iPod. It was stressful when I had to give him my last goodbye kiss and last goodbye hug, very heart breaking.

When I finally left his sight and was on my way home, I was doing fine. I mean yeah I was crying, but I felt like I could make it home and be just fine... WRONG!!! All of a sudden, out of no where, I start to breath really hard and really fast. Next thing I know, I start to feel my vision go black to normal then black to normal. I started to freak out and all I could think about was "oh shit! I need to get off the freeway, I don't want to crash, There are a lot of cars around me." So quickly I threw my hazards on and started lane changing. I exited Foothill Ave. and pulled into the nearest shopping center. All I remember next was passing out, and then next thing I knew I had 7 text messages. I didn't tell Nicki or Rachel or any one that I passed out. The next day, I ended up telling Emanuel that I passed out the. But I'm not on tomorrow yet. I finally made it home. Emanuel was still able to text me throughout the night. That was pretty awesome! I told him I read the story that he wrote me. I'm going to post it soon. I was able to sleep okay that night. I was lucky to have my girls Nicki & Rachel to keep my spirit up.

iiT'S oFFiiCiiaL!!!

May 7th Me, Emanuel, & Nichole went camping once again at our favorite place. Rancho Cucamonga Canyons. Omg! It was soooo much fun! I can't wait until Emanuel comes home so we can go camping there again. Anyways, we hiked the hard way there, totally worth it. As soon as we got 2 the spot, I showed Nicki how to set up the tent (for furture refferance). After that I set up all the chairs.

After we were done seting up out camp I began cooking the carne asada and chicken, YUM! After we had a few drinks and finished our food we all decided to take a nap (it was 11:00 pm, and yes it was a nap). Well of course me and Emanuel didn't nap, we were too busy kissing. =)

We finally woke Nicki up, and we went on a little adventure. We decided "hey why not hike in the middle of the night, in the water w/ our water shoes" Omg! what a fun idea! no really, it was fun! we had a blast. Nicki kept falling and made me and Emanuel laugh. It wouldn't have been as fun w/ out her. Hahaha!!! We finally made it back to our camp and decided that this time we should really call it a night.

Once again, only Nicki fell asleep. Me and Emanuel snuck out of our tent for our own little adventure. We wanted some "alone" time. It was perfect, the weather was nice, it was a bright moon, you could see really well in the dark (good for us, but not for people who didn't want to see, hahaha, it's not a typical place where people go to camp, it's mainly for hiking). All I thought to myself was, "I wish this night would stay still for ever and I could live it for ever with him."

After awhile it got cold. So we headed back to the tent. I was tired and so was he. We got into our bed (I brought my air mattress) and snuggled up w/ each other. I faced towards Nicki while Emanuel spooned me and held me tight. I was so comfortable, I couldn't imagine being anywhere else to be but right there w/ him and in his arms. He then leaned closer to my ear and said "arlene?" and i responded, "yea?" He didn't say anything, I got a little worried, so I said, "yes?" hoping it wouldn't be anything bad. He then said, "Will you be my girlfriend again?" Omg! instant cry baby!!! I was balling out in tears, the good kind of tears though. I truned over, still crying, nodding my head yes, kissed him for awhile and then finally was able to say, "yes! of course!"

I was soooooooooo happy! I can't be any happier!